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Hey guys sorry I haven’t been on lately I’ve been hacked ): I don’t know if you notice the horrible theme. But I’m trying to get back on but I don’t know how because my email won’t work do I can’t change my password D; waaaah. The only reason I’m on now is because it still has me logged on mobile . Thank god hopefully I’ll be able to reset my password soooon!
Dear you,
I think seeing your sister at David’s Bridal a couple days ago got me thinking..
I miss you.
I miss you alot. You were a huge part of my life and i cant just ignore that… you were my first love. We have so many memories together like going to see the Justin Bieber movie at midnight in 3D , going ice skating in Jeff City but my favorite moments were just when it was me and you. sitting there watching movies. talking . just being there together spending time together without worrying about other people and other things . those were the best. ugh . i miss you so fucking much it hurts sometimes.
I wouldn’t be the person i am today if it werent for you, as corny as it sounds its true. Before we met i honestly was the most insecure person in the world even while we were ‘together’ i was really insecure . I mean you took another girl to prom… but that’s not the point. I was just so afraid and unsure of myself I thought the whole relationship type thing was normal but when the 11 months were up i learned that i am a good person and i deserve someone who knows that. Someone who isnt afraid to hold my hand in public and tell people. I sound like a hypocrite right now because i just said how i like us time, i do like it. But its just nice knowing that you’re proud of me and arent afraid to claim me. Not just when we go out of town…
I dont even know what i want with us right now i honestly dont… its been 4 months since we’ve talked and i thought i was really over it but just sitting here i have these moments when i miss you and the phone calls and the company. No one really knows how infatuated i was with you… i was obsessed in love Remember the first time we talked? I do.
It was in September and you messaged me on facebook we talked, then we texted and then you called me. thats when it all went down hill . You were doing your math project and eating hellla loud! and i made fun of you of course and then you went all ‘big boys gotta eat ‘on me. hahaha . We talked until like 12am.
thats 4 hours. We used to text eachother allllllllllllllllll day then talk on the phone alllllllllllll night. you were pretty much my life but thats where it went all wrong i put alll my effort into a guy that wouldnt even talk to me at school he was just to cool to speak to me. but i didnt care. ugh . The crazy part was that we used to fight like a couple to we were both jealous people but were just to dumb to admit it. I think it was because we cared to much… atleast thats what im hoping… just all the conversation we had and all the things you used to say still get to me and i remember every single on of them..
i think the worst part is that sitting here now if you started to talk to me again we did the same thing we used to do before ; cute phone calls, secretly hanging out and just being cute. id take it, id forget every guy and take you in a heart beat…. but that doesnt matter because youre dating some sophomore. She’s lucky. I hope you dont send her the same 2 am text messages you sent me, i hope you dont tell her all the same things you said to me but most of all i hope you felt the same way i feel/felt because i honestly hold on to those things like they are my last breathe….
and of course anchor man had to start playing!
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